Never too late, p.1
Never Too Late, page 1
Never Too Late
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Epilogue
Acknowledgements
About the Author
Also by T.A. Williams
Copyright
Cover
Table of Contents
Start of Content
To Mariangela and Christina as always with love
Prologue
‘What’s this, Ethan?’
‘What’s what?’ He didn’t bother to look up from what he was doing at the back of one of the amplifiers.
‘This little bag? What’s it doing stuffed in here under the console?’
In an instant Steph had his full attention, and she couldn’t miss the guilty look that passed across his face, immediately followed by that same petulant expression with which she had become increasingly familiar over the past months as he had started coming home late, often reeking of alcohol. Only this time it wasn’t alcohol. The anonymous little plastic bag contained a white powder and she had a horrible feeling she knew what it was. She held it up and tried again, her voice heavy with sarcasm.
‘Sugar maybe?’
‘If you must know, it’s talcum powder so my fingers don’t slip on the sliders.’ As usual he was trying to bluster his way out of it.
He dropped his eyes back to the recording console with its rows of lights, switches, knobs and sliders. He was deliberately avoiding looking at her but she knew how to be patient by now. She just stood there holding the little bag in the air until he finally raised his eyes again. After a year and a half of living together they both knew each other well enough for her to know he was lying and for him to realise that she knew. An expression of resignation appeared on his face.
‘Yeah, all right, it’s coke, but it’s not mine.’
‘There’s cocaine here and you knew about it?’ She raised her eyes in silent supplication towards the ceiling of the recording studio. ‘We could be arrested just for possessing it. What on earth were you thinking? And if it isn’t yours, whose is it?’ She could feel her anger rising. His increasingly frequent late nights and excessive drinking had been bad enough, but now drugs?
‘I can’t say, but it’s not mine.’ He made a brave attempt to catch and hold her eye but his resolve barely lasted a second or two before he looked away. ‘I’m telling you: it’s not mine, Steph, honest.’
He had never been a good actor and Stephanie gave a sceptical snort.
‘Just like the smell of booze coming off you last night was because Donny spilt his brandy on you?’ She took a deep breath and stood there, wondering what to do. Things had been getting worse between them lately and she had the feeling that everything was leading inexorably towards her ending the relationship unless she could get him to turn over a new leaf. The trouble was that she had loved him. She still did when he wasn’t playing at being a Jim Morrison or a Jimi Hendrix character, bent on self-destruction. However, if she were to dump him, this would also inevitably mean giving up the job she loved. After all, he owned the studio and at the end of the day she was his employee. Working for her ex, particularly after an acrimonious break-up, would be tough, if not impossible.
Music – of any kind – was in her blood and working here as a recording engineer was in so many ways her dream job. She was now on first name terms with many famous – and infamous – faces and had been actively involved in the production of a number of hit records. Giving that up would be hard, and she knew enough about the cut-throat world of the music industry to know that finding something similar wouldn’t be easy. As for classical music, her first love, the opportunities were even more limited and worse paid.
Coming to a decision, she handed him the little bag. ‘Here, take it. I’m tired of your lies, Ethan. Promise me you’ll get rid of it now, this very minute. I don’t want a criminal record, even if you do.’
She read relief on his face as he reached over and took the bag. ‘Of course, Steph. I’ll go out now and give it back to the guy.’ Before she could question him any further he scuttled out of the door, leaving her sitting there questioning her life choices once more.
Chapter 1
The following week
‘What did the doctor say?’
Steph could see that her mum was doing her best to sound casual but the anxiety in her voice was all too obvious.
‘She told me it’s definitely a lump, but she says it could easily be a harmless cyst.’ Steph tried not to let her own fears spill out. Bursting into tears wouldn’t do either of them any good.
Her mum even managed to produce an encouraging smile. ‘So not dangerous. That’s really good news, isn’t it?’
Steph nodded dutifully. ‘Hopefully it isn’t anything sinister, but she’s arranging for me to have a mammogram later this week just to be sure.’ In fact the doctor hadn’t actually pronounced any kind of judgement on Steph’s lump, but there was no point in worrying her mum any more than necessary. ‘If it’s just a cyst, I expect they’ll probably just leave well alone.’
‘I’m sure it’ll turn out to be nothing.’ Her mum’s tone became more downbeat. ‘With your father they knew straightaway—’ Steph cut in fast to interrupt what might become a morbid flow.
‘It’ll be fine, Mum. Try not to worry.’
‘I’m not worried, darling. I’m sure it’ll be fine, but it’s always a good idea to get these things checked out.’
Steph could see how hard she was trying to sound optimistic and encouraging, and she loved her for it. She stood up, kissed her mum on the top of the head, and moved towards the kitchen. ‘I feel like a cup of tea. Want some?’ In fact, the way she had been feeling since coming out of the surgery, something a whole lot stronger held considerably more appeal, but she knew there was no booze at her mum’s house.
‘Yes, please, dear. But make mine weak or I won’t sleep tonight.’
Steph glanced at her watch as she filled the kettle and raised her eyebrows. It was barely six.
‘What did Ethan say when you told him?’ Her mum’s voice echoed in from the lounge.
Steph put on the kettle and returned to the lounge doorway. ‘I haven’t told him.’
‘You haven’t? No, I suppose it’s best not to worry him until you know what’s going on.’
Worry him? The way Ethan had been behaving recently, it probably wouldn’t even have registered with him. ‘Yes, best to wait.’
‘There’s cake in the tin. Mrs Edwards came around this afternoon, so I made a chocolate sponge.’
Steph made the tea, cut two slices of cake and returned to the lounge where the conversation soon revolved back to Ethan.
‘How are things between the two of you? All going well?’ From the tone of her mum’s voice, Steph could tell that she knew full well that things weren’t going swimmingly.
‘Not really. He’s being very immature.’
‘Still staying out late? And what about his drinking?’
‘Not getting any better, I’m afraid. The thing is, Mum, he wasn’t like this when I first met him.’
Her mother surveyed her over the coffee table. Since moving in with Ethan eighteen months ago Steph had made a point of getting over to see her mum as often as she could as she knew how lonely it must be for her after the death of Steph’s dad the previous year. The first few times she had brought Ethan with her, but her mother had never been keen on him and it was clear from her attitude today that she disapproved of him even more now.
‘If you want my advice, Stephanie, you’d be much better off without him.’ For a moment Steph waited for her to add, ‘I told you so,’ but she didn’t.
‘You may be right. I’m starting to think that myself.’ Steph paused helplessly. ‘It’s just that if I leave him, I’ll have to leave the studio.’
‘You’ll find something else. And surely your happiness is worth more than any job?’
‘Yes, but much of my happiness is my job. I love it.’
‘Why don’t you look around to see what else is available before doing anything drastic? You never know what might come up. People move on, start families, get fired. Why not spend a few hours on the internet seeing what’s available?’ Her mum had always been a pragmatic sort of person.
Steph nodded in agreement. ‘That’s exactly what I was doing last night. The trouble is there’s nothing here in London; at least, nothing as good as my present job.’
‘Well, if you love it so much, you really need to sit down and talk to Ethan, tell him how you feel. Maybe he doesn’t realise how his behaviour’s affecting you.’
Steph sighed glumly. ‘You’re right. It’s just that I’m not sure he’s ready to modify his behaviour. The more time he spends with his mates – and there are some really wild ones among them – the worse he gets. Although he’s thirty-six, he sometimes acts more like a sixteen-year-old.’
‘Then let him get on with it, even if it means you having to make a fresh start somewhere else. That’s what your father did, after all.’ Steph’s Italian father had been a violinist who had moved from the famed La Fenice orchestra in Venice to the Royal Philharmonic in London. He had married and settled happily over here, insisting on speaking to his daughter in Italian as much as possible so that she could learn the language. And it had worked. ‘You could always look for something in Italy.’
‘Let’s not get carried away, Mum. I haven’t dumped him yet.’
‘But I think you will.’ Her mother sounded as though she was in no doubt. ‘Your happiness is the most important thing. There must be loads of other jobs in the music business.’
‘We’ve been through this time and time again. There aren’t as many as you’d think and certainly very few well-paid ones. At least with this job I can keep the wolf from the door, which is more than I was doing as a session musician.’ With an awful lot of hard work and the unfailing support and encouragement of her parents she had managed to get to university, emerging with a music degree and a massive student-loan debt. After university she had spent several years trying to survive as a keyboard player but in the end she had bitten the bullet and looked for something more secure. The result had been her current job, working for Ethan. As time had gone by, she had found herself drawn closer and closer to him until they had moved in together.
Any further comment was interrupted by her phone. She picked it up and groaned inwardly as she checked the caller ID. For a moment or two she toyed with the idea of not answering but then decided she had no choice. He was her boss after all.
‘Ethan, hi.’ Out of the corner of her eye she saw her mother roll her eyes heavenwards. ‘What’s new?’
‘How do you fancy a few weeks in Italy? By the seaside. You’re half Italian, after all. You should love it.’
‘Are you talking about taking a holiday?’ Steph was genuinely amazed. This was a first. Ethan rarely took time off – unless it was to party into the small hours. As for herself, apart from regular trips to Venice with her parents to spend time with her dad’s extended family, the only other time she had been abroad had been a cheap and not so cheerful trip with a former boyfriend to the Costa del Sol five years ago where a bathroom full of cockroaches and a twelve-hour delay at Malaga airport on the way back hadn’t inspired any desire in her to travel anywhere since.
‘I’m sure we’ll have time to holiday as well, but this is a job, and a good one.’ He was sounding remarkably bubbly.
‘In Italy? Why go to Italy?’
‘Because that’s where the job is, and we’re needed pronto.’
‘But what about the studio here? We’ve got people booked in all the way through September.’
‘They can wait.’ He sounded dismissive and she was about to retort when he elaborated. ‘But Royalty can’t.’
‘Royalty?’ She knew she was sounding gormless, but she couldn’t shake the image of Charles and Camilla that suddenly materialised in her head.
He was quick to explain. ‘Royalty, the group. They want us to produce their new album.’
‘Wow.’ In spite of everything, Steph felt a surge of excitement run through her. Royalty really were royalty in the world of music. With platinum albums, BRIT and Grammy awards to their name, they had dominated the rock music scene throughout the nineties and well into the new century, even if they had dropped out of the limelight over the past few years. ‘And they’re reforming? I thought they’d split up.’
‘They had and they are.’ Ethan was sounding unusually animated. ‘And they want me to produce their comeback album. Do you realise what this means?’ In case she might be in any doubt, he spelt it out to her. ‘This means the big time for me… for us. It doesn’t get any bigger than this.’
‘Wow.’ Steph was aware that she was getting a bit repetitive but she had to agree. Being chosen to produce a brand-new album for a group whose fame ranked them up there alongside legends like Pink Floyd or Queen was huge. A thought occurred to her. ‘But why Italy?’
‘That’s where Keith has his home nowadays, or at least one of his homes.’
‘I see.’ Keith Bailey was the leader of the group and he had achieved legendary status in the world of rock music, most notably for the famous millennium concert in Hyde Park in aid of world hunger. He had also hit the headlines, she remembered, for punching a renowned chat-show host live on air but that was a long time ago now. Hopefully he had mellowed with the passage of the years, otherwise this new contract might turn out to be fraught with problems. ‘But what about a studio? We’re going to need a truckful of gear, surely.’
‘No need, he has his own. I’ve just come off the phone with him now. He’s been telling me all about it. From what he’s said, he’s got even better gear than we have: some real traditional stuff and some state of the art.’ He rattled off names and specifications of the recording equipment in Keith Bailey’s Italian studio and Steph had to agree. This was top of the range stuff. Mind you, if anybody could afford that sort of thing, it was Royalty.
‘Sounds good. When does he want us?’
‘Starting next weekend.’
‘Blimey, talk about short notice.’ She thought frantically. The doctor had said she would arrange the mammogram this week so presumably that wouldn’t be a problem, but there were other considerations as well. ‘We’re going to need to contact the performers we have booked in for the next month and put them off. They aren’t going to be happy.’
‘We’ll offer them a fifty percent reduction in our rates to make up for it. That should keep them sweet.’
Steph glanced at her watch. ‘We need to start calling people as soon as possible. I’m round at Mum’s for tea. I could be back at the studio by seven thirty. Do you want me to come straightaway?’
‘Enjoy your tea and then come back. It’ll be fine.’ He was sounding chirpier than she had heard him for ages. Maybe, she wondered, this would be the kick-start he needed to give up the Bad Boy lifestyle and concentrate on carving out his career for real – and he really was good at his job. Everybody said so and the fact that Royalty were coming to him proved it. And, she realised, if this did indeed signify him turning over a new leaf, maybe this new Ethan might also change back into the man she had fallen for three years ago.
Over the chocolate cake Steph told her mum all about it. Although her mum had little interest in modern music she knew the name Royalty, but Steph had to spell out how significant it was that she and Ethan were going to be involved in the group’s first record in years. A quick search on her phone told her that it was almost exactly a decade since their last public appearance. ‘As comebacks go, this is one of the greatest. Maybe not quite like reforming the Beatles but still huge.’
‘Now I come to think of it, didn’t you have a Royalty poster on your bedroom wall for years?’
Steph grinned at the memory. ‘Yes, all the way through school I had the most enormous crush on Ben, the bass player. In fact, half of the girls in my class did.’
‘And now you’re going to meet the man in person.’ Her mother grinned back at her. ‘Maybe you’ll end up dumping Ethan in favour of a rock star.’
Steph shook her head. ‘I hardly think so. When I was a teenager, he was probably already in his thirties.’ She did a quick bit of mental arithmetic. ‘That probably makes him fifty now. I’m not sure how I’d feel about dating a man who’s twenty years older than me.’
‘A multi-millionaire rock star who’s twenty years older than you.’ There was a distinct twinkle in her mum’s eye. ‘You wouldn’t be the first. Mind you…’ Her mother hadn’t forgotten what they had been talking about before Ethan’s phone call. ‘If you get Ethan to yourself for a bit, away from his toxic friends, it might mean that you and he…’ She didn’t need to say more.
‘We’ll see, Mum. Here’s hoping it changes him back to the man he used to be.’
Chapter 2
The following Sunday she and Ethan flew to Pisa. All the way over on the plane Steph had tried to keep her mind on the job rather than on what the radiographer had said on Friday. After both a mammogram and an ultrasound scan, she had informed Steph that they would get the results to her in a week or so and told her to try not to worry. The very fact that she had told her not to worry had had the opposite effect and the possible outcomes had been uppermost in Steph’s mind since then. Because she was coming over to Italy the clinician made a note to ensure that she would get the results by email, rather than letter, and indicated that they shouldn’t take too long. As far as Steph was concerned, she just hoped the news whenever it came would be good.
